A Diary of A Single Man: Isn’t She Lovely

The pain and the monster inside after my father died who lives in my head and sometimes often under my bed

How often the narrative repeatedly resurface and reveals itself.

A Diary of A Single Man: Isn't She LovelyA Diary of A Single Man: Isn’t She Lovely 

Isn’t she lovely
Isn’t she sweet
My new girlfriend
My new bride to be

These are running shoes
I call them lifestyle sneaks
My favorite girl drives
While I sit in the passenger seat

They don’t come out
Not til the summer time
80+ degree weather
No forecast of rain
For the next two weeks.

Isn’t she lovely
Isn’t she sweet

Daddy was a
Dope fiend
My Sister’s
Mother was too
How I feel
Explains
What I mean
According to what I’ve seen

Blue or Green Pill
Systematic refill
Either one is lethal
The intellect injects
Thinking he is equal

Modern day discovery
What does the brothers say

What’s in your wallet
What kind of pain do you feel
Today
Drink this…
It will help you swallow it
For real Fo reel

No time for rehab
Reestablish this
That sharp pain
In your wrist
Head noddin’
Vein throbbin’
That
Drunken slob of a drule
From your lips
Keep your head up
Now give me a kiss

Now imagine this
If you dare
Glossy eyed
That stupid stare
Papa gone Nana’s strong
Momma out doin’ tricks
For her kids
She said,
“Fo her kids”
And
They pay
As
We pay to play
Then pretend
As
It starts all over again

Cop & move
Cop n move
Sirens sound Mina’s baby never found
Daddy the fool

Street education
Called survival
Street dedication
Becomes the arrival
Street economics
Cash from doing your math
Knowledge from understanding
Today’s science
What’s in your hand

Economic conditions
Defines the position
Of a pawn
Who doesn’t own a lawn

The monster in a box
Without a clock
Surrounded by four walls
Made out of cement blocks

People living on top of you
To the left and right from you
People, just people
With their own point of view
What do you do as
The voices in your head
Gets louder and louder

A Diary of A Single Man: Isn't She LovelyA Diary of A Single Man: Isn’t She Lovely

What’s next
After your head begins to pound
People react differently
Living the same reality
What I see is merely
A reflection
Of what was shown to me

The prison within
The demons
Called friends
The escape
The plan
To separate
To liberate
To have
The debate
Then vanish
Without a trace

Isn’t she lovely
Isn’t she sweet

Bye bye niggah
No more
Lies my nigger
The Sun is hot
In July
My nigga

That’s when the book drops
On the floor
From…
Broken bones to
Shredded pages to
A blog…
Never calling it hip hop
Street nouns after the brown bag goes pop

Isn’t she lovely
Isn’t she sweet

I see the red
I see the white
I can’t seem to find the blue

I see the lead
I see the paint
I still can’t find the glue

I’m in the bed
The lights are out
I don’t know what to do

Water dripping on my head
Momma lights a candle
Nothing to eat tonight, again

Street awareness
One can’t be careless
Reading the signs from details
Recognizing the nature of a rat
In fact…

How to bait and setup a better trap. The value from looking a person in their eyes. I see what I see which makes me be me.

Breathe easy
Freebrezy
Know exactly what It means
From 106 to the Park
To the studio
That’s now dark

Pay attention to the world
And everything around and in you
The signals
The symbols
The signs
Are clear
They are
There
Stop
Look
Listen
&
Stare
Then
Share

How the horse is forced to drag the wagon as its scars are ignored.

Two pennies for your thoughts…

A Diary of A Single Man: Isn't She LovelyA Diary of A Single Man: Isn’t She

Isn’t she lovely
Isn’t she sweet

These are running shoes
I call them lifestyle sneaks
My favorite girl drives
While I sit in the passenger seat

They don’t come out until the summer time. 80+ degree weather no forecast of rain for the next two weeks.

Isn’t she lovely
Isn’t she sweet

What kind of candy today will you offer me?

 

Harlem,

 

Heaven is at the foot of Mother…

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